boo, you whore.

i woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.

my cereal wasn't that good. this damn internet isn't going fast enough. my hair is so freakin ugly it's just upsetting me at this point and i really really don't want to go to that place i have to go every morning. that place is stupid and a waste of my time and i hate it (stomping foot on ground while folding my arms)

i just want to go lay out in the sun and 95 degree weather all day.

also, my husband was fun and cheerful and happy this morning so that made me being grouchy even worse because lets be honest, who can be grouchy to a happy Bart? not me.

i just have today and then i have 4 days off. 3 of them in Logan where I get to see my old non-crazy coworkers slash friends and see other friends and play in the sun and water and run around doing whatever I want NOT going to that stupid place i have to go to every morning and then monday see my other non-crazy friend.

so today i will be grouchy and then i will enjoy my next 4 days. deal?

FYI

For my internship I had to interview one of the professionals I am working with and let me tell you it was awesome! See gave me such great advice about the future and told me if my desire is to be a producer I will be able to find a job easily and get the experience I need.

When she was talking about herself right out of college it was like she was describing me! I am so glad to know I'm not the only one who feels the way I do and had the desires and reservations about this career choice that I do. She said the biggest mistake college students make is unrealistic expectations. Luckily for me I have pretty low expectations- I just feel like I am going to have to start at the bottom and work my way up and that doesn't bother me. I understand the importance of learning and making mistakes and then moving up in the world. What good is starting your dream job when you're 23? What are you going to do for the next 35 years??

It's going to be tough, and take a lot of work, but it will pay off eventually and I think I'm going to love it!

Also, I randomly got a scholarship in the mail the other day! I wasn't expecting it at all and I had the biggest grin on my face when I got it. I never got scholarships because I didn't know anything about applying before I started school and all that good stuff so this is kind of a big deal for me. I was a pretty happy camper after getting the letter. My experiences at the U have only been positive and I can see why Bart and I were meant to live here. I'm excited for this last year I have to learn and then get out in the real world. I don't know where I'll be, or what I'll be doing, but I know it will work out.


p.s. May has been the longest month of my life! It's seriously never ending! It's only the 23rd??? Sheesh.

bad ideas

woke up at 3:30 a.m.
dozed until about 4:20 when I started to fall asleep and have a dream i was going to be in an earth quake (my bed was shaking and everything. yeah, i'm losing my mind.)  i knew i was going into a dream so i attempted to wake myself up and almost fell right out of bed.

bad idea.

been awake since and still have an hour before I have to leave.

i cheated in my typing class in 8th grade with the numbers so i still can't find the right number without looking down. (bad idea.)

my hair is working today. FOR ONCE.

Corn Chex and banana slices = best.breakfast.ever. (good idea)

im going to need some caffeine today to put up with the stupid girl over at you know where. (good idea)

also, i did back extensions at the gym yesterday. that was ANOTHER bad idea.

really hot shower means warm body (good idea) but really dry skin (bad idea)


idea is such a weird looking word...

Sometimes Yesterday in Africa

Sometimes I have good days where I discover I got straight A's in school and then go run 4 miles.
That was yesterday.

Today I am going to attempt to make chicken enchilada's. This can only mean one thing: my day is going to go downhill from here because let's be honest, cooking kinda pisses me off.

Also, another intern started and she is kind of stupid. Someone asked her what she wanted to pursue in broadcasting. Her reply? "I really just want to save kids in Africa. Like, own my very own village." Watch out Africa, there's a crazy chick ready to take over your world!

Then when she found out I was married she just looked at me with pity in her eyes and said "but you're so young!" then later she asked me how old I was (22) and again she's like "and you're married??" (in the annoying wow i'm judging you tone) and I raised my voice a little and said ya, and I love it so shut the hell up. okay maybe I didn't say that but I wanted to. I did say that I loved it in a tone that indicated we were don't discussing the downfall of my life that was marriage.

prayers

this morning I asked:

"please help me feel useful at my internship today. please help me have things to do and take the initiative so they know i am there to work"

it totally worked.