I hate vacuums

I woke up at 6:49 a.m. this morning for a few reasons...

1. My roommate decided she needed to vacuum her bedroom which just happens to be located right next to mine. vacuum...at 6:30 in the morning...what is wrong with some people?

Actually I think I know what happened...my roommates are disgusting (surprise surprise) so yesterday when Bart and I got home after school getting canceled we just started cleaning. It wasn't planned or anything but one second I was doing the dishes and he was vacuuming and the next I am elbow deep in goop cleaning out my nasty shower that I have been avoiding because I am stubborn about cleaning up after people. The end result? A completely scrubbed bathroom, a vacuumed house, a clean bedroom and a deep cleaned kitchen. 

So anyway, I think this is maybe why she felt like she needed to vacuum? Because the whole house is probably cleaner than she has ever seen it so as soon as she walked into the black hole that is her bedroom she realized it was a little out of place.

2. My leg started cramping up randomly. It has happened before and it is some of the worst pain. My whole leg will get this really dull but strong throbbing pain all over and I just have to sit and wait it out except I can't because it hurts too much so I got up and walked around and that is how I ended up here...blogging about my feelings.

3. I woke up cold... no big deal except combine that with my crazy vacuuming roommate and my leg it couldn't be ignored. I have been trying to keep the heater off as much as possible so we didn't have to pay $479 in utilities every month and it seems to be working but it is officially winter and I think the heater will have to start coming on at night.

Speaking of Winter...the crazy snow storm that everyone was talking about was so weird. I have lived in Utah all my life and never has school been canceled because of snow. Sure maybe recess was canceled but school didn't get out early or anything. Yesterday however, Bart tells me the high schools are getting out at 1:30 and then I get to my group meeting and I am told that USU is getting shut down at 2! It seriously blew my mind. I'll be honest I am glad I didn't have to be up at campus when that thing hit (it sucked, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was just another winter storm in my eyes). 

After a few hours Bart wanted a Pepsi, he said, "This is what an addict must feel like" referring to the fact that he was willing to go drive around this crazy snow storm just for a Pepsi. We went though, it was pretty non-eventful but then I realized this would be a perfect night to make sure I knew how to drive in the snow! (I have only had my car for one winter and last year it really didn't snow that much) So Bart and I piled in and our adventure began. 

We got to the first light and the guy in front of us just kept spinning his wheels and didn't go anywhere for the first 2 green lights. Finally, when it was clear this person had no idea how to drive in the snow, Bart got out and started pushing him. The only problem was this guy STILL didn't know how to drive so his wheels are spinning and Bart is pushing and eventually they end up facing the other road with oncoming traffic. The green light had switched at this point and there was a snow plow heading straight for them. Luckily drivers were paying attention or it could have gotten messy... Eventually the poor guy was able to drive off after Bart pushed him through the entire intersection. So here I was, officially nervous that I would be the next fool to get stuck, and my rescuer was across the street not able to help. Finally, after having about an 8 min. light, it turned green and I completely dominated. I didn't get stuck ONCE during our teaching lesson I was so proud. (Bart was starting to get frustrated by my driving though so we went home early, making sure I could handle everything in the morning.)

All in all it was a fun night. We made homemade hamburgers which always taste SO much better, and just hung out. I love winter! I realized I do need a new coat though, I have officially outgrown my one I have had since 9th grade...(is that a fat joke? I still haven't decided..) Luckily though Bart's mom gave me rain boots for my birthday so my feet were basically invincible. 

I am so excited for the next few days! I have to work this morning but once I am off around 3 we are heading down to see our families. I have to work Friday night too so it will kind of be a short visit. Compared to last year though when I didn't even get to eat Thanksgiving with my family I am pretty happy with my options this year.  I know I have already said this but I LOVE this time of year!

11/13/09 - 11/13/10

This is kind of late seeing as how my birthday was 4 days ago buuuuuut this is some of what I have learned this past year::

No I do not need a new pair of shoes or a new shirt every other day

It is okay to have to buy all the toilet paper for your roommates...

I am a candy addict....and I dont know if that will ever change!

Family is my biggest blessing. I now have 2 amazing families

Even though I am still only in charge of the salad this Thanksgiving, I AM slowly learning how to cook.

Love happens when you least expect it...and you have to love yourself before you can love someone else like they deserve

I have come to see Logan, UT as my home. I really like it here and I definitely could NOT say that a year ago

I kinda suck at school....but at least I try, and procrastination is my middle name

I have discovered the joys of football and basketball games...you're welcome.

I have learned to live in the moment, worrying about the future all the time doesn't change a lot, so just enjoy today

Laundry should be done on a regular basis because doing 12 loads in a row SUCKS!

I miss reading. I really like to read but I haven't read a book in way too long.

I have learned that bad things happen, but life is happy for the majority of time.

I have come leaps and bounds as far as money management goes...(I will give myself a big pat on the back for this one)

Water is the best beverage...just embrace it.

In my interpersonal communications class we talk about levels of friendships. i have come to discover that i prefer most people to be at a certain level of friendship. The level where I dont need to disclose anything that makes me vulnerable. My whole life i have been stabbed in the back and have come to deal with it in my own way. I can honestly say having a lot of good close friends does not appeal to me. at all. I am very comfortable with where i am when it comes to my friends...all two of them. :)

This past year has probably been the best year in the past 5 in a lot of ways. I have made mistakes, but I have truly overcome them. I have met amazing people, some I sill have and others I don't. I have learned sooo much in school, I want to study everything, school is amazing (even if I hate it by November). 

November 13, 2009-November 13, 2010 will definitely be a year I won't soon forget. All-in-all I would say it was a good year....but I am of course excited for my next year of life....LOTS of big changes. Cant wait!

sneak peek

You know that feeling you get when you eat too much so you cant get comfortable? that is my current state so I will write instead of sleep. write instead of relax.

you may not know this about me, but i keep a journal and i write in it pretty often. i like to go back and look at where i was a year ago, so i did that tonight and the entry just makes me smile because i remember the night i wrote it and thinking back i honestly could never have guessed this is where everything would end up. it is a cute journal entry so i am going to write it on here, this is for all the girls who write about their current crush thinking that it probably wont turn into anything but i am here to tell you that one day it will.

 ...

November 17, 2009


Bart has been reading his stupid book for hours and I am so bored i even painted my nails. He is cute though so i guess i dont mind. im liking him more day by day and the crazy thing is that i love it! i dont feel scared or nervous for how things will turn out im just enjoying ever day with him. he is so good to me and treats me so well. ive never been with such a good down to earth person. ive never been so comfortable around anyone,especially a boy and here i am with no make up on and strait out of the shower! Im so lucky to have him in my life and being with him makes me happy. It makes me feel loved again, it reminds me that someone cares about me and is thinking of me. I love the little things about him like how he only smiles sometimes so when he does you know he means it. i love that he wears his stupid USU hat everyday and he looks so good in it. I love when he trims his beard short and that i notice. i love that out of the million people he knows he chose me. he makes me feel special on a daily basis and he has yet to do anything that would break my trust in him. He is an amazing person and im glad that i just went with it instead of pushing him away because i feel like we work well with each other.

 ...

Well there you go, a sneak peak into my personal journal, a flash back to how i was feeling one year ago. i love journals because of this reason, looking back and being able to remember certain events. I can still picture this night and me painting my nails and how seriously bored i was, i wrote this on my floor feeling sneaky because he had no idea what i was writing. 

Another reason why i love journals; you can read back on all the stuff you thought was so hard and realize now, a few years later, that it wasnt that big of a deal, so maybe the hard stuff you are going through now wont be that big of a deal when you look back on it in a few years. it is just comforting to know that yeah bad stuff happens and life is hard and life is stressful but life also changes. all the time. and for the most part, you can change it for the better, i know i have, my journals have proven that.

this is very much a rambling blog post but i just have to have them sometimes im sorry! I am still very full and very tired but those two just dont mix well for me so i have a feeling i will be up for a while...i guess i can just tell you about my day at work since that is always an entertaining topic...

well first i will talk about the cute little boy i cut hair for today because my sister said i need to put up positive work stories instead of just negative so here is one: I get little boys (and when i say little they usually range from 8-12) that are so sweet and polite and they totally remind me of my little brother. one particular kid sticks out to me because he was the youngest and you could tell he had a good relationship with his mom who was there and he was very sweet and polite and when he said he was 11 I just thought oh you are like my little brother...oh wait....he's 14 now.....weird. My baby brother will always be little in my eyes. Even though he is almost taller than me (almost being the key word) he will always be my sweet baby brother who milks all he can get out of being the youngest and a momma's boy.... :)

i did a lot of old men hair today too at work. old men can go either way, either they are funny and it is entertaining to do their hair or they are grouchy and i am terrified for my life...i had mostly grouchy ones today....i hate that. they smell and are mean and never tip....

 one last thing

I cant wait for Thanksgiving and the holidays!! Best time of the year. Hands down.

I love this picture because...

I love this picture because my two best friends are in it and we all looked sooo good that day :)

I love this picture because it reminds me of our last summer adventure where we attempted to go on a hike only to have discovered we went on the horse trail instead of the person trail and there was still like 45 miles to go before we got to our destination. I was hating life but then we ran into this little piece of heaven right in the middle of nowhere and it made everything all better

I love this picture because it reminds me of the good times in hair school where our hair was always the source of entertainment

 

I love this picture because I still remember this day perfectly when my niece wore my swim suit...hilarious. 

I love this picture because I think of our amazing trip to Oregon and how much fun we had 

I love this picture because it reminds me of my friend Bree who moved away but not before we had some fun fun times, laughing over this picture because she looked like an alien

 

I love this picture because it represents how amazing our summer was. And lets be honest....we look hot. 

I love this picture because it also reminds me of our awesome summer and this tree almost killed me

what

What confuses me:

boys who wear coats with fur on the hood

girls who always go back to the boy who makes them cry

people who talk in the library....seriously??

registration and what classes I should be taking

why there is no cursor on this screen

What I miss

being able to sleep in

80's dancing with sarah

sarah in general...

my family

What makes me happy

knowing I only have a few more weeks of this semester

my new rain boots

having all my laundry done

soft skin

old jeans

What scares me

the dark

dogs

getting yelled at by a professor

the fact that I will be making dinner every night this week

(lets all pray I don't burn anything down or poison Bart)  

What bores me

my sociology class

the gym

 the library 

What makes me anxious

thinking about next year/semester

trying to finish this English paper...

thinking about starting my next Speech paper..

my last Media Smarts project

What I should be doing

researching Malcolm X

my english paper

not blogging

writing 493 other assignments 

What I did this weekend

turned 21!

got a massage

ate 23,000 calories a day

got pampered by Bart

took naps

got some bright pink rain boots

went to a movie

ate lots of cake

bought myself plenty of stuff

didn't even THINK about homework

spent time with my families

got cool stuff from Honduras/Mexico 

Caffeine Side Effects

I am hyped up on probably about 70 oz of Mt Dew and emotional so I am going to vent. This probably should have been done a long time ago but since I havent really thought about it until now I am going to do it tonight. Who I am about to write about know who they are and frankly, if they are reading this and/or get offended by it then they are only proving me 100% right in what I am about to say. This has been a long time coming but I dont want you all to think I sit and stew about this every night because I DONT. I dont think about this constantly, I dont cry into my pillow every night, I dont wish I could take things back. I love my life. I love the people in my life. My life has turned out to be a dream come true and so no, I'm sorry but I wouldnt change anything that has happened.

Once upon a time a girl fell in love. It wasn't supposed to happen, at least not with the boy she fell in love with. All of her friends were saying he was so wrong for her and this other boy was the one she should be with. Well they were wrong. This boy and girl fell in love and started something amazing. Something not everyone will find, and for that, this girl feels bad. But she is so happy that is was lucky enough to find this person. Unfortunately, for who knows what reason, her relationship with this boy has been attacked countless times, criticized and mocked by everyone except the people closest to this boy and girl. These outside people are bothered by this couple. They see these two people as one person, like the one doesnt have a life outside of the other and that may be partly true but guess what, IT IS BECAUSE THEY LIKE IT TAHT WAY. Of course if you werent in this kind of a relationship you wouldn't understand. You would see this couple as weird, maybe a little pathetic because they are always together. However, if you have ever have had this, or are currently in love, then you completely understand.

I am sorry that I choose to spend my time with the person who makes me the happiest. Heaven forbid I want my life to be happy. I know some cant imagine why I would ever give up friends who treat each other like crap 70% of the time, who I was always afraid of saying anything to for fear of getting attacked and made fun of, for a person who I can be myself around, who never brings me down and who loves me as much as I love him. Life is to be enjoyed and I promise once you find that person who makes you happier than anyone else in the world you will finally understand.

Now this post may bring drama but guess what, I wont be involved in it. This post is going to be the last time I ever vent about this. Like I said, I dont think about this topic a lot but tonight it was brought up and it really bothered me and the way I deal with these things is writing about it. yes I could have written about it in my journal but guess what my mind is going at 100 miles an hour thanks to the caffeine currently in my system and I can type a hell of a lot faster than I can write so I am doing this on here. I still havent decided if I am even going to post this but if I do, and you get offended: get over it. I do not hate anyone and I would hope you have enough of your own life where you dont have to worry about mine.

If my relationship bothers you, ignore it. Block me from facebook if the fact that the person I am about to marry tells me he loves me every once in a while, I am not checking your facebook page so you can learn to not check mine. I am not forcing my relationship onto anyone. I do not brag about my relationship. Bart is not the only thing I talk about. Bart is not the only thing I have in my life, but he is the main thing, which is the way I think it should be.

There are two sides to every story. I would hope that before believing one, you get both sides before you judge me because I know full well no one has ever asked for my side. And you know what I hope for the most? I hope I am just talking to myself. I hope that none of the people I am talking about are reading this because that means they have moved on to and that makes me so happy. Why dwell on the past? So things didnt work out the way any of us thought it would...thats okay! We are all happy. I am happy, so just let me be happy.

I am in love and I am proud of it. No I dont make out in public, no I dont have to have Bart by my side in everything I do. Yes, I have my own opinion and my own views and my own friends. Yes I have moved on and love where my life is going. No I dont think about what I just wrote all the time. Yes I am hyped up on Mt Dew and will probably be up all night. Yes I had a blast tonight and love everyone who was in that restaurant with me. And yes, this weekend is going to rock.

Goodnight everyone who has read this entire thing. I love you.

Hey, it's OK

...to eat snow

...to wear shades when it is cloudy

...to hit the snooze 5 times before you get out of bed

...to eat cold pizza for breakfast

...to plan on eating that same cold pizza for lunch and dinner too...

...to pretend to text message to get out of talking with that hyper-chatty person standing next to you. It’s called communi-faking, and we all do it.

...to mock the silly Freshman in your class for waiting until the day before to start their paper

...to be bitter that your professor won't curve any of your tests

...to be in bed by 10 p.m.

...to not go to bed until 4 a.m.

...to buy generic TP

...to shout, "I am not!" when he claims you're hormonal.

...to start your to-do list with a task you've already done.

...to begin thinking about lunch at 9:35 A.M.

...to smirk when you see the big, tough guys at your gym tripping on the elliptical machine.

stalkerrr

So there is this one girl....

who I have been facebook stalking...

who honestly has dated every guy I have dated in high school

every single one.

does that mean we are like the same person?

I dont know but it is really weird and I dont like her but now I feel like that would be like me not liking myself because apparently we are very similar...(say that 10 times fast)

and I know what you are thinking and no,  its not like they dumped me and went for her, the order depends on the guy...so it's not like she is better than me...right?

bahhh this is why I hated high school.

facebook stalking complete.

such a child...

"you are such a child"

that is what Bart tells me all the time

the past few days have made me realize that he is completely right

I eat captain crunch for breakfast

I hold out my tongue and try to catch snow flakes all the way from the library to my car

I go out of my way just so I can walk in a pile of leaves

I would go see a Disney movie over an action or chick flick

I love decorating sugar cookies

I like to play I-Spy and ABC games in the car

I would love to get a coloring book for my birthday

I love cartoons...the "old school" ones that are never on anymore

I am such a child....you're welcome.

Gone and done it

So I was listening to the new Taylor Swift CD today and I realized something ....

I went from having songs like this relate to my life:








to having songs like this relate to my life:



I heard this song and I immediately thought this was the story of my life!!






...and this song always reminds me of Bart...
yes, he is this great.
He makes my life like a love song





I love that sad love songs about stupid boys don't apply to me anymore....I really am so happy. People may think I am crazy for some choices I have made, but I promise when you find that one person you want to spend your life with...you'll understand