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Day off today, didn't sleep-in though. Too much to do to sleep in. It is the time of the semester where I have a test every other day, a test where my teacher is convinced no one can get an A in. Funny thing is we are learning about self fulfilling prophecy in that class, tell someone they can't do something, they most likely won't prove you wrong. So go ahead, tell a group full of eager willing students none of us can get a good grade in this class, way to prove a point. I am determined though, determined to get an A in that class if only to prove her wrong.

I have a group projects to finish which, in all honesty, is the last thing on my mind when maybe it should be my first.

Stories I took because no one else did and I want to be helpful. I feel like that is the only thing I can do to be helpful because despite my attempts, it seems like I am not really needed. The stories are complicated and technical and I have to read through the answers to my questions five time before I understand what is being said. My sources are in Arizona, out with the flu, doing a convention in Preston (do they even have a building for that in Preston?) but I can't not do them. That's not an option. Boring story? Make it exciting. Can't? Write it anyway. I don't want to come off as bailing so I will make these stories kick ass to show that I can, to show that I really am good at what I do.

I am getting married in 7ish months. 7 months is now the length of time I have to plan my wedding. It now seems like a good time to start. But what do I want? I have never thought about my wedding before. I never thought I would find the man of my dreams so soon. A man who takes such good care of me, who loves me and shows it daily. A man who makes me so happy. But I did. I found him. And now I have to plan my wedding.

I miss my mom. I always miss my mom. I miss my dad, which is not surprising either. My family isn't one of those families who can't stand to be around each other. Growing up we did family things, we played games, we ate dinner every night, as a family. And I miss that. I am excited to have my own family one day and create that for them. I miss my family and their ability to let the phone ring 3422 times and never pick up because we are all arguing that it isn't for any of us. I miss the family that screams for another member to come downstairs instead of going to get them like they were asked. I know I am all grown up and have to be an adult, but I still miss my family.

I love having a full schedule, to be almost too busy. I love to feel accomplished when everything I have to do is done. Not today, today I want to sit on my couch with 3 day old hair and watch a worthless show that will profit me nothing in the long run. I should go to the gym, but I am sore from yesterday still and that is no motivation....getting married is a motivation though...so I will be going to the gym. I made rice crispy treats though, I had marshmallows and I had rice crispies so that was the logical thing to do. I will probably end up eating the majority of that pan of rice crispy treats too. I am not a binge eater, I have a sweet tooth, an empty stomach and a sweet tooth.

I have a million things to do today. We all have a million things to do today.